I shut down my blog a few months ago. Something was weighing heavy on my heart. I knew if I spoke, I would let it all tumble out. I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t ready to hear the judgment that circles the lips of those around me.
You see, I’ve been down this bumpy road before. When I was about 16, I gave birth to the little boy that saved me from myself. He is simply the best thing that has ever happened in my life. Yet, many around me felt compelled to voice their opinion, to question my choices…It was rarely positive or up lifting.
Oh, I get it. Trust me. I know I was just a baby myself! I knew I made a choices that separated me from the crowd. However, I was already on the road. Their advice at that point didn’t serve a purpose.
Unfortunately I soaked in way to much of that poison. I allowed those words to linger to long, to transform the way I thought about myself. It took years for me to shake that old coat.
And now…Now my son, who is 22, just had a baby of his own. She is precious and perfect and beautiful. She holds every ounce of my heart. I love her…I adore her. I can’t get enough of her.
As I was holding this perfect bundle of joy today, I wondered why I ever let the “haters” silence my voice…AGAIN….
I’m back on the bumpy road… but I’m older, smarter…more confident. I’m a fierce, confident, kick ass momma lion. I won’t allow, won’t tolerate, won’t participate in the negativity. Our family is beyond happy…over the moon happy. You simply can’t imagine how happy.
You see, we know all to well that there are far worse things in the world than having someone new to love.
I don’t know how I got so lucky to have so much love in my life, but I’ll take it.
Even if our road is different, slightly bumpy and unnavigated…I’m a bit of an explorer. I tend to make my own road…and make it beautiful.